Coffee Club

I got my first ever job! I'm only 15, but because its privately owned they'll still employ me. Its a small cafe, called the coffee club; as the title suggests. I started yesterday, its a Saturday job. I wasn't nervous at all, but now that its done i'm not looking forward to the next time at all. It was a total disaster, and id honestly advice anyone i know to never eat in their. Its the type of place that picks things off the floor to put on the plate, or picks the burnt bits off with his fingers, not to mention the fact I didn't see the cook wash his hands once! My job involves taking peoples orders and telling the people in the kitchen, then taking their food to them and once their done, clearing the table. It sounds so simple and for the first and last couple of hours it is. But for the hours inbetween i hate it with a passion. The people who go there are old, or have things wrong with them and i cant understand what they are ordering! They kitchen staff send me to all the wrong tables with all the wrong food and people return it. Its horrible. But i get £40 a day which is pretty good right? Im going to go back for a few more weeks and see how i get on, if i really hate it, i'll quit but at least i should give it a go.

I also got 90% for KU, and 95% for RE in my maths general prelim! Im so proud of myself. Ive done all the essays i need to do for english and i've made my subject choices. I've been revising nearly everyday but somehow still making time for my friends. I've gave my dad a second chance(or third? fourth? whatever..) since him and Steph split up, and i've stayed at his new house. Somehow i just feel so much more mature these past few weeks.

Shannon

Well the day with the 6 didn't happen. Only Emily came, I was pretty bored but at least we had a chance to have a good chat:). I really miss Shannon though. Me and Shannon have become so much closer and right now she seems the person who i'm actually closest to. We have big chats with Ally, Kevin & Connor(different Connor by the way) where we stay up all night, and its a laugh. But shes still in hospital and i miss her! She thought she was fine but the doctors didn't really know what was wrong with her. They were going to take her off antibiotics but she took another seizure this morning. I really hope shes okay and gets better soon. Love you Shaz!

Time passes so fast

I just realized its spring! How great is life eh? I'm having a night in with a face mask & catching up on Eastenders. Tomorrow i'm having a day with the 6, well except Shannon:( shes in hospital. She passed out on Thursday and only woke up today; its Sunday by the way. So yeah, she not wont be there tomorrow, but i'm looking forward to a good catch up with the girls anyway! I have 6 weeks left of school until study leave. Its one of those situations where you don't really know how to feel. I cant wait for the holiday and to walk out of that final exam. But at the same time, the end of the exams means the end of being young in a way. Well, not being young so much, just growing up. People will be leaving school. People will be getting jobs. I'm not, i'm staying on for 5th year but it scares me how old i am and how fast times past. I mean, in 6 months or so i could leave school, get a job, move out, have a baby, get married. I know i wont. But its scary to think that people i know will. That when i go back to school after summer, not everyone will be there. I'm gonna miss people alot:(

Age is a high price to pay for maturity

Just the other day she was a little girl taking over the world with her smile.

I really do need to grow up. Im going to 16 in a few months and if im honest, im not mature at all. My little sisters more mature than me. I come home drunk. I dont do what im told. I fail prelims. Im not interested in what my mum has to say. I dont tell her what my plans are. Basically. I dont care. But i need to start caring. I mean, going out getting drunk, parties, drugs, guys etc. Thats part of growing up right? But i guess my mum doesn't need to see that side of it. I know i can look after myself. But i need to make her see that. So today i got up. I cleaned the kitchen, folded the washing, hoovered the livingroom, cleaned my room. Im going to revise for a couple of hours and then i'm going out. Thats a fair deal right?

The party which didnt happen

what am i doing? hahahahaha

my mums going out on saturday night and im having people over. well, someone called it a party? but i wouldnt call it that.. just 20 or so people coming over for a drink and stuff. it doesnt sound like that big a deal eh? but i have a lodger; someone that rents a room in my house, i just hope she doesnt phone my mum. my mum will be back at some point and she told me it'll be really late, but my sister just told me shes been ill so she might be back early! well this is gonna be funny.

Abercrombie whore?

jack wills whores.

not quite, abercrombie & fitch but along the same lines i guess.

i just bought and abercrombie jumper for £89, i adore it, but my mum, to say the least; was not pleased. she goes on about how shes in dept and she doesnt have the kind of money. the roles are upside down though, as everything is in my life, and surprisingly, i do have the money. i have £175, some of which is christmas money, some birthday money, and some pocket money. but you know, why shouldnt i be able to treat myself?

Smell of burnt hair

sitting in the waiting room in a&e with a woman in a long fur jacket who smelt of burnt hair does not go down well with me after being phoned from my nice warm, skive from school, bed at 10 in the morning to have to go to hospital. i swear i cannot take going to hospital with my gran anymore! actually that makes it sound like i was there for my gran. i wasnt. i was there for me. my mum overreacts and sends me to hospital if i get an ulser, thinking in dreadfully unwell. again, i wasnt. but hey! i got put on infliximab, which is what ive been asking the doctors to put me on for months. eventually they listen, i guess i do know what works for me then eh?