Utter shit

Allys on holiday & a few days ago he missed me so much and loved me and everything but then he gave me so much abuse. He thought I was with someone at a party that wasn't even there but he wouldnt believe me. He called me a slut, an attention seeker, said he hasn't trusted me for the last year. I started to ignore him because I'd rather sort it out when he's back but then he was mailing me telling me to fuck off & started calling me a slit all over again, saying I piss him off all the time and that I can't wear what I want because everyone thinks I'm a slut & that he was thinking of finishing it. But I've done nothing wrong & I'm not a slut, all I did was laughed at something he said. He says he bottles up & won't talk to me about things but I'm not a mind reader, I can't always know what he's thinking! He made me feel like total shit & here I am in tears again because I don't know how anyone who could possibly love you would want to insult you so much and make you feel this low about yourself. This is horrible, I don't want a controlling, horrible, upsetting relationship but that's exactly what I've got. And at time he can be the most loving, cute, perfect guy in the world but he's hurting me so fucking much & all I want to do is help!