Im back on the cabbage soup diet.

Today I had an extra 3 triangles of toblerone tho

I can burn 461 calories an hour doing jumping jacks

There was about 2000 calories in that binge. Do you realise how fucking much food that is?!?! Do you?!!? I cant burnt that off ever. Like if I excersized for the full of tonight I could not burn that off. Do you realise that? I will be fatter when I wake up in the morning and there is nothing I can do about it now!!! Why why why do I put myself in these situations its all my fucking fault

Help me

I had to purge. And hardly anything came up and i was coughing blood and now my stomach really hurts and this is so fucking horrible

I binged a bit.

2 slice beans on toast with cheese
Half grab bag of sensations
3 brownies
1 scone
1 pink iced cake

I broke my fast and had a muller rice, it's only 130 cals but basically I'm fucking starving and dizzy and shit and its horrible and I can't concentrate on anything

Ok i might go down at 4 and make beans on toast but not eat it.. Then I can say I'm not hungry cause I had that?

I'm scared because I saw a fajita kit downstairs and its one of my fav foods ever and I don't know how to turn that down if that's dinner. I have to tho because chicken and cheese and sour cream and carbs and omg no. I just can't do that. Like that is wayyyy to much. I'm scared how to avoid it tho. It's going to be so obvious.

Think I need a bath, distract my hunger

Supersize vs superskinny is a strange program for me. I look at the thin people and desperately want to look like them so it's motivation but I look at the fat people's food and could eat soooo much so it's temptation

Fasting today

Had half a bowl of bran = 67 cals

So today will be a hard day. Its Saturday and I have work. Its in a cafe so as if that's not enough to bring on cravings, they also offer me free burgers, toasties, anything I want. If I say no the first time they ask me, I'm normally ok. But to get to the point where I say no, I've had a thousand arguments with myself before that. Can I eat? Cant I? Today, no. No you can't. And then if I tackle that, it's being at home. My dad, Cat & Sarah are all out tonight and so it's not so much a matter of being forced to eat but of myself becoming my own worst enemy. I have no will power. I'll walk home which will burn some calories but even then I'll only get in at half 4 and if I go to bed at half 10, that's still 6 hours to avoid food. Maybe I wont come home straight away, I could walk for an hour before I come home so I get back at half 5. Then that's a reasonable time for dinner, right? But something low cal. I'll try to distract myself with my coursework, my Psychology stuff and cleaning my room. But this is going to be damn hard. But I can't fail today, I just cant. If I fail today most of what I've done so far will go down the drain and that cant happen. I need to wake up thinner tomorrow.

You know when your feeling really shit about boys, just be thin

I'm trying to do 10 mins at a time, I struggled with that one so much

It's so sunny today so I'm trying to get out on my trampoline a lot

I think I figured that having tomato or brown sauce on your toast I healthier than butter

Wow just realised whole meal bread is only 58 cals a slice but white is 113 wow