Or maybe thats just what friendship is?

I'm really doubting today how much i actually like Ally. You ever felt that? One day your totally loved up and the next your wondering why the hell your wasting your time instead of looking for someone else? He's not even done anything. Its the total cliche 'It's not you it's me' situation. I don't finish with him when i feel like this because then i think, well could i be doing that's better? And i cant think of anything. So am i just buying my time until someone better comes along? Because that would be wrong, and if that's true i should finish it now instead of hurting him, because i do care about him, i know that. But maybe it's just as a friend. And what happens if i wake up tomorrow and love him again?

Is this what love is?

Lying watching a film cuddled up with Ally and I wouldn't have wished to be doing anything else in the whole entire world. I surprise myself at quite how comfortable i am around him now, how comfortable i am that i can do and say whatever i want with him and that's okay. It may be strange that the thought actually ran through my mind that i don't think I've ever been as at home around a guy as i am around Ally, except being around my dad. Of course that's a totally different type of relationship. But its knowing that your not constantly judged on your actions, that your imperfections don't bother that person. And it's funny, the things that used to annoy me about Ally... i just kind of except as him. And i guess i wouldn't want him any other way. I actually strangely feel sort of lost without him, after being around him so much in study leave, going back to school is weird. I don't realize how much i love him, even writing this now but when i face the fact that i could lose all this, my stomach flips. Its then that i think i couldn't possibly love him anymore, and yet everyday he proves me to be a liar.

Galadayyyyyyy!

It was the galaday a couple of days ago, and it was great! The procession was okay, i stood with Shannon and the usual people, but with Rose and Emily as well, and Ross, Katie etc. It was a lot of different groups of people, but good! It wasn't that hot, but everyone was happy anyway. Later we all went up to Kevin's grans so he could get his drink. Me and Shannon already had 2 bottles of wine before we left at 9 in the morning haha! And had some sidekick with us. After that we went to Lisa's for a bit, and i thought it would be awkward when she got back, but it wasn't at all. She was so nice to me! There was a fight later on, but i'd say she deserved it. Its fair to say i wasn't too happy she was all over all in her bra? But yeah, Lauren had her own reasons for battering her. Everyone was wayyyy to drunk, and i ended up staying at Allys with Jamie and Kevin. All in all, amazing day!