A big event or a forgotten one

I should probably write about this since its supposed to be a big night in my life. Yet i don't feel like it was at all. I feel no different. I broke my virginity. I shagged Ally.
It was his football awards ceremony and the first time I had properly met his mum and dad. His mum bought us drink, but i was really conscious of how i acted on front of her, I didn't want to make a bad impression. But his mum and dad left an hour or so before us and we finished all the drink so by the time we made it up to the pub for the awards ceremony, we were pretty drunk. His mum didn't seem to care though and the whole thing passed so fast. I was supposed to be staying at my dads, but whilst drunk me and Ally thought it would be a good idea to text both our parents and ask to stay with each other. None of them were bothered and so we did. I don't want to write down everything that happened and when on this. I don't know who's reading it, and i guess i kind of want to keep it to myself. I hope i remember it. I guess thats why i write this whole blog, so that one day i can look back and read it all.

'You pierced your navel!' - Freaky Friday

Aha! This is exactly what my mum would say if we happened to switch bodies like in Freaky Friday right now. My dad took me a couple of weeks ago to get my belly pierced and it hardly hurt at all. I love it, its so cute! Its blue. But yeah, my mum doesn't know yet, and i'm not planning on telling her till my exams are over. Then at least i can give the whole "at least i waited" ruitine. Thankfully for the past few days she's been in Tenerife with David (another boyfriend, lost count by now eh?) so she hasn't had the time to notice it. Hehe!

So happy I could die

Im literally just so happy. In the past few weeks, i've actually cried because of it. I think this is the first time in my life i've cried with joy. This is the first time in months i've been just so utterly, ecstatically happy. I cant actually think of one thing i'd change about my life right now.
Me and Ally will have been out for 2 months in 2 days. I know that might sound pathetic and childish, as its not long. But it feels a lot longer. I hardly ever get butterflies when i see him (although, i did once and got way to excited about it hahahah! sad thing that i am) but i love him. I do. I wouldn't say im 'in love', and if i'm quite honest i'm not sure i actually know what being in love is. But i'm not scared of falling in love. Not if it's with Ally. I used to be so scared; with Matt, with Connor, with Jamie. But Ally's different. Just everything about it's different. It's a lot more real. I mean, i was out with all of them a lot less time, but i liked them so fast and rushed into everything. I was so scared of liking them too much, but now i'm not scared.
Matt Matt Matt. I regret talking to him so much, but somehow i can't stop. I say so much to him that i shouldn't, not when i'm out with Ally anyway. But i say it anyway, and wish i hadn't the moment after. Maybe it's because i've known him so long. Or perhaps because of how much, or how long, or how young.. i liked him.
I only have 4 exams left, and so far their going well. I'm not very good at making myself revise, but im not worried. I'm happy and to be honest, i don't think failing could bring my mood down. And anyway, being happy's whats most important, right?
I've also seen the venue for my party and i love love love it!! Its at Di Vinci's in Livingston, and its gorg! Its totally huge, and i'm allowed up to 120 people, i'd say thats the best part!
Im so happy i could die