Repulsive Me.

Eww. Disgusting. Me.
Do you ever just look in the mirror and feel sick? I do. Recently my bodies made me feel sick even just to think about it. Maybe its because i put back on all the weight i lost so quickly i didnt have time to kind of re-adjust, get used to it again. But then again i wasnt happy with my size before i lost weight. More importantly, im making myself ill, The amount of food im eating! My bodies rejecting it and i know it fine well, but it doesnt stop the steroids giving me the munchies does it? but if im being honest its not majorly down to the steroids but more the fact that im greedy. My stomachs getting the intense pains again and swelling to the size of a bloody football! But per usual i go on munching my way through anything i can find. So heres the plan; dont eat. It easier to say no to everything than to try and bargain with myself as to what i can and cant have and eventually make up some pathetic reason as to why some bar of chocolate is good for me. So tomorrow will be my first day. This time tomorrow, i will have eaten no more than i have now:)! I'll write tomorrow about how it goes!