Im literally just so happy. In the past few weeks, i've actually cried because of it. I think this is the first time in my life i've cried with joy. This is the first time in months i've been just so utterly, ecstatically happy. I cant actually think of one thing i'd change about my life right now.
Me and Ally will have been out for 2 months in 2 days. I know that might sound pathetic and childish, as its not long. But it feels a lot longer. I hardly ever get butterflies when i see him (although, i did once and got way to excited about it hahahah! sad thing that i am) but i love him. I do. I wouldn't say im 'in love', and if i'm quite honest i'm not sure i actually know what being in love is. But i'm not scared of falling in love. Not if it's with Ally. I used to be so scared; with Matt, with Connor, with Jamie. But Ally's different. Just everything about it's different. It's a lot more real. I mean, i was out with all of them a lot less time, but i liked them so fast and rushed into everything. I was so scared of liking them too much, but now i'm not scared.
Matt Matt Matt. I regret talking to him so much, but somehow i can't stop. I say so much to him that i shouldn't, not when i'm out with Ally anyway. But i say it anyway, and wish i hadn't the moment after. Maybe it's because i've known him so long. Or perhaps because of how much, or how long, or how young.. i liked him.
I only have 4 exams left, and so far their going well. I'm not very good at making myself revise, but im not worried. I'm happy and to be honest, i don't think failing could bring my mood down. And anyway, being happy's whats most important, right?
I've also seen the venue for my party and i love love love it!! Its at Di Vinci's in Livingston, and its gorg! Its totally huge, and i'm allowed up to 120 people, i'd say thats the best part!
Im so happy i could die
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