So today will be a hard day. Its Saturday and I have work. Its in a cafe so as if that's not enough to bring on cravings, they also offer me free burgers, toasties, anything I want. If I say no the first time they ask me, I'm normally ok. But to get to the point where I say no, I've had a thousand arguments with myself before that. Can I eat? Cant I? Today, no. No you can't. And then if I tackle that, it's being at home. My dad, Cat & Sarah are all out tonight and so it's not so much a matter of being forced to eat but of myself becoming my own worst enemy. I have no will power. I'll walk home which will burn some calories but even then I'll only get in at half 4 and if I go to bed at half 10, that's still 6 hours to avoid food. Maybe I wont come home straight away, I could walk for an hour before I come home so I get back at half 5. Then that's a reasonable time for dinner, right? But something low cal. I'll try to distract myself with my coursework, my Psychology stuff and cleaning my room. But this is going to be damn hard. But I can't fail today, I just cant. If I fail today most of what I've done so far will go down the drain and that cant happen. I need to wake up thinner tomorrow.