Dont risk everything you have for nothing

I ruin everything! I went to Roses on Friday night for her birthday. Lauren, Jessica, Shannon, Emily, Amy, Gemma, Rose, Lisa, Rhona and I; A real girly night. We had a big punch bowl, and sourz and took tons of pictures. We had a right laugh but i ended up getting intae Gemma, Amy & Shannon. I swore to Ally i wouldn't because we had already had words about it earlier and he pointed out that it was basically cheating. But i did it anyway. I cried so much; I didn't want him to finish with me, but in the long run i didn't want to lie to him or hide things from him. So i told him. And he said how much it hurt him and that he didn't know if he could trust me and i totally understand that. He didn't finish with me, i stayed at his last night and we're fine, thank god. I don't know why i'd even risk throwing all that away? It's not like i even like any of the girls, we're just good friends. And even though i don't count that as cheating, he does and really i should be putting his feelings before my own.