I cant be alone

My dad's trying to split me & Ally up, that may sound like an exaggeration but its not. He's told me he doesn't want me to be with him, that he's not part of my future. But who is he to say what my future is? He wants University and money and a job; but all of that means nothing to me. Life isn't about money, its about love. He stopping me staying on Fridays. One night might seem like nothing, but those nights mean so much to me. My dad doesn't understand, he thinks its all about sex. Its not. Its having someone there. Its getting a cuddle in the middle of the night. Its getting a kiss before work, and having someone to come home to after work. Its not being alone. I can't be alone, i overthink and i get upset. And when your minds racking through everything in the middle of the night, sometimes that arm around you, that gentle kiss, its enough to stop it all, its reassurance; something i haven't felt from my dad in a long time. My dad told me to move in with my mum, then cried said he wanted this to feel like my home. This isn't my home. I don't know where my home is, but it's not here.