Let me move in with you

It feels like im waiting for fucking everything. Uni and jobs and kids and living with Ally and cars. Im sick of it! I want it now! I could have had my baby, i would have lived with Ally! I could have had all that and i threw it away! Ally thinks its too soon. I remember that night he asked me to move in, clear as anything and one of the best memories i have. He wanted it so bad i was the one who was unsure. Its so the other way about and i hate it! I want to move in with him. I hate his house. I love being with him. I dont understand why he doesnt want that anymore. I dont want to push him into anything, but i want this so bad.