I cant do this without you anymore

Im terrified. I've never been so scared of something in my whole entire life. Losing you. Ally. I may say at times you mean nothing to me. I may say i don't need you. But you'll always mean something to me. This year with you has been hard, theres no denying it and if im honest im surprised we're still together. But arguments or not, i wouldn't change us for the world. You made me feel things that no one i've ever met has ever made me feel. Im terrified that one day i wont be able to watch you sleep, that i wont feel your arms around me anymore, i wont hear your voice all the time. I'm terrified because i know it will happen. I'm terrified of this. Us. Because i am going to lose you and i'm not sure i can do this without you anymore. Im terrified because im in this situation right now. I need you, i need you more than i've ever needed anyone. I love you more than i've ever loved anyone. And i can't lost you. Im in so deep and theres no easy was out and im not sure you feel the same. Im sorry.