You dont love me

Its like the carpet being pulled from under your feet. It makes you feel sick. Makes your jaw tremble. Brings tears to your eyes. It terrifies me. I think he's going to finish it, he doesn't want to be with me. I love him more than i can ever explain but i'm not forcing him to be with me. I've told him; if he doesnt want to do this, tell me now. Waiting for that text, i'm petrified right now.