Im pregnant

I'm pregnant. This is one of the biggest decisions of my life. Everyone was drinking in mine on Friday and me and Ally argued, we got angry at each other because we were both terrified. Terrified for this moment, for what i guess i've known for days to actually be true. His mum was so happy when we got home on Friday, she was drunk and talking about us getting married about having kids. Ally blurted it out, that i might be pregnant. I was so shocked. But i'll always admire how brave he was in doing that. He had told Connor, Kieran & Robbie that i might be, I had told Leah & Shannon. Because we needed someone to talk to when we didn't know how to react to each other. Connor gave me a hug, and we both cried. Everyone told me that Ally would never leave me even if i was, that they all know he loves me so much. Ally told his mum he thinks we'll be together for a while, gave me drawers in his room. He seems serious about me, sure that he loves me. So i did a test on Saturday, i went in the shower, i couldnt face sitting there waiting for it to prove positive or negative. Those two lines brought tears to my eyes. Going up to Allys room and having to tell him. To see his stomach drop like mine did, to see the fear in his eyes. We sat in silence for a while. There was nothing in the world that could be said to fix the situation we're in right now. Ally told me he loved me, that he'd stick by me whatever i decided. I'm terrified, but im so unbelievably proud of the way Ally reacted, i'll never ever forget this. It will be fine, i should get rid of it, and i will. But im not sure i want to. Shannon might not be able to have kids, Allys brother cant, my mum lost a baby. People want so much to have what we have right now, and we're throwing it away like its nothing.